5th of November 2015

to everyone who is reading this,

here are some of the few things I would like to convey to my beloved friends....

well, actually, no .. here are just my two cents ;)

what is a human life without the presence of a mixture of excitement,worries,frustration and etc?
I don't know about your answer to this but all I know was to me, life is designated to be this way, to assist the growing and civilization of human beings. How does one grow up, how does one increase maturity while aging without a little challenge and obstacle in life? I would say that, life will be a complete dull without an exciting roller coaster ride which there is a start, a climax and an end. Sometimes, the road is a little bumpy but that's what makes it interesting and exciting! Imagine going to an amusement park and you were forced to sit on a kiddie ride which probably....bores the hell out of you and you would definitely not opt for a second ride for that ;)

After all of these that I've said, I just want to say that.. challenges and obstacles make life stronger and make you wiser in the growing process :) I know, it's hard, it's difficult, it's tedious and sometimes tiring to face all of these alone but that's how life works. A difficult process will guarantee a beautiful result :-). You might think I'm bullshitting.. you might think saying it is easy but let me tell you, you aren't the only one who is undergoing all these things alone.. you might ask yourself, what differs from you and other people? why are other people taking things so lightly and optimistically? Well, the answer is actually quite simple... it's the way how one view problems and issues in life.

Actually, it's all about self-reflection and self-resolving. Others even your family members and close friends are not going to help you solve your problems, but it's them who will help you ease your burden just a little. Instead of having a negative perspective of life, let's change it a little, perhaps an 180 degree turn? ;-) What do you think of that? Notice a straight line, turning 180 degree turn...it looks the same isn't it? and notice how I didn't state which direction you should turn? Yeah, it's up to you to decide if you want it to turn clockwise or anti-clockwise. Either way should bring you to the same results. I.e., even though the end results will still be the same, it's your choice, your decision to see things in a good or bad way :)

In conclusion, it's the way one sees life, it's the choice one makes to make life a little happier for everybody including you! Have fun and enjoy life at fullest! You're still a teenager and college life should be one of the best moments in life :) Make it a memorable one.... :)

29102015

Hi. It's me again. Why am I always here? Hmmm. Simply because... I miss you two. I really do. I have no place to rage. I have no place to run and hide from the world. I have no place to scream and shout. Oh gosh. This is the only place that I can speak out of everything that keep deep inside my heart each and everyday. I am so upset. But I choose not to tell both of you not because I do not take you girls as friends, but it's because... I think I'm mature enough to grow up already. But no, I do not mean that I am mature enough to solve the problems in my life. It's because of a lot of aspects in my life and I really need to be myself at least once in a lifetime... I have stop being myself since I tried to pleased everyone in my life because my suffer can fulfill everybody's happiness. Hurting myself is the choice that I have choose to live as. And I'm telling you that I've had enough of it. I swear it hurts so much. Why can't people try to please me as well like what I did for them? I truly appreciate even a single bit that people do for me but why? This never change since primary school until now. Everything that I do have beyond what I think I can handle but all I get in return is rubbish rubbish rubbish treatment. Am I so worthless? Is caring people's feelings a very wrong thing to do? Should I like shop caring what other people feels?  Am I not a human being? Why this issues in my life keeps repeating? Why? Am I that stupid for them to use, to bully, to ignore, and to laugh on? I'm so freaking tired of everything. Can I just escape? No. I know I can't. They are just a lesson that God's trying to teach me. I'll prove that I'm capable enough to face it. Because it's my journey to live in. I can do it. I must do it. And I will do it. I'll be myself again. I am me. Hakuna Matata.

Hulo

Hi. Can't believe I'm actually here. Hmmm it makes hell out of a lot of sense why only I am here but not the two of you. (If you two know what I mean HAHAHAH) I am only here to brag about you two. I am so happy that you two are living so well. Well maybe I was wrong, maybe you girls are suffering all by yourself and not telling out, but do bear one thing in mind. You two are the strongest people that I ever met in my life. Life may be tough, but YOU are tougher than life. ;) Love you guys. You will never be alone. :) God bless.

Baybe

Hahah hi to TAY, hi to the babies author :P
I am someone who loves TAY as much as anybody else would do :P
Someone having a bad mood in the morning and someone is sleeping right now to restore energy for enjoying a show later on. And I was the last someone here. Hahah XD
Recently I had received some calls from my friends that I can never expected that they will call me and have a conversation with me. I was kinda shock as well as pleased :3
Did I ask for more? A friendship that is real, fair and square, is this so much to be done? I don't know.
The past is all in the past. Forgive done. Forget never. Like, never.
I know why by myself... I am not as pretty as them, not rich, no topic to talk with like them, yea I guess I know why even more on that day. I never was one like anyone of you. I accept the fact because it is the way that it should be like. I'm not going to say that I'm thankful to anyone of you, or sorry. Because I meant nothing from the start until now. I was nothing to you all from the very beginning, when I really treat you all like everything. Everything. Time proves that I was wrong. So wrong. Without this two girls and some those friends of mine who really did care about me, I swear and I know, I can never get my feet back up in my life back then. Maybe I never grow up, and never learn my lesson in my life but yes. I still know what is right and what is wrong. What is good or what is bad. What is mine, is mine. What isn't belong to me, I'll let go. Because holding on to something that can never going to be yours when you already know it, there will be no result in the end. Time wasted. Emotional wasted. Tears wasted. Love wasted. Money wasted. For someone who never and ever give a shit about you? What for? They are living their life so well, leaving you feels like you lose everything. They don't care. Not even a second... Sad. But it is okay. Everything is going to be alright. Guess you'll never know how strong you are... Until being strong is the ONLY choice you have. I learned that shit happens but life goes on. The thing is... I'm just a human, I have feelings too. I can be sad, don't I?
TAY anniversary 1209 days? I just want to say... Sorry and Thank you for everything girls. :')
-still counting. Till infinite and beyond.

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