29102015

Hi. It's me again. Why am I always here? Hmmm. Simply because... I miss you two. I really do. I have no place to rage. I have no place to run and hide from the world. I have no place to scream and shout. Oh gosh. This is the only place that I can speak out of everything that keep deep inside my heart each and everyday. I am so upset. But I choose not to tell both of you not because I do not take you girls as friends, but it's because... I think I'm mature enough to grow up already. But no, I do not mean that I am mature enough to solve the problems in my life. It's because of a lot of aspects in my life and I really need to be myself at least once in a lifetime... I have stop being myself since I tried to pleased everyone in my life because my suffer can fulfill everybody's happiness. Hurting myself is the choice that I have choose to live as. And I'm telling you that I've had enough of it. I swear it hurts so much. Why can't people try to please me as well like what I did for them? I truly appreciate even a single bit that people do for me but why? This never change since primary school until now. Everything that I do have beyond what I think I can handle but all I get in return is rubbish rubbish rubbish treatment. Am I so worthless? Is caring people's feelings a very wrong thing to do? Should I like shop caring what other people feels?  Am I not a human being? Why this issues in my life keeps repeating? Why? Am I that stupid for them to use, to bully, to ignore, and to laugh on? I'm so freaking tired of everything. Can I just escape? No. I know I can't. They are just a lesson that God's trying to teach me. I'll prove that I'm capable enough to face it. Because it's my journey to live in. I can do it. I must do it. And I will do it. I'll be myself again. I am me. Hakuna Matata.

Hulo

Hi. Can't believe I'm actually here. Hmmm it makes hell out of a lot of sense why only I am here but not the two of you. (If you two know what I mean HAHAHAH) I am only here to brag about you two. I am so happy that you two are living so well. Well maybe I was wrong, maybe you girls are suffering all by yourself and not telling out, but do bear one thing in mind. You two are the strongest people that I ever met in my life. Life may be tough, but YOU are tougher than life. ;) Love you guys. You will never be alone. :) God bless.