Heart Broken.

So , this is me ,  Sue Ann .


So, what am I going to say for today ?
I'm officially heart broken .
Not because of love , not because of friendship .
Just mainly heart broken .

Knew that if love is too deep ,
I would only occurs self-hurting situation.
Yes, now I can't even control myself well.
Every time I see your name,
Kept holding tears in my eyes.

Your chat , your words ,
never going to make me happy anymore
As I know,
things were going to fade.. Fade ...fade.

I don't know why ,
Everytime I see your name , with your words,
I don't know what to say anymore.
I don't know what I want to tell you , what I want to talk to you.
I'm out of words,
Not because I'm shy , It's because I can't find the proper you.

Heart broken .
The feelings will never stay and heart remains broken.
I know,
it may be okay if it was only single sided love.
I really don't mind though but never , never ever show your feelings to me if it was fake all the time.

Maybe,
you found something that can really replace me .
I don't know what to say I'm out of words My mood is ruined.
Using all the possible reasons to cover up all the problems.
Lying myself , Lying you , Lying to everyone.
I'm a BIG liar.

I questioned myself always .
What can I do to improve relationship ? Do I looked pretty enough for you ? Am I annoying to you ?
Always the same question and always find a nice answer from you.
But for nowadays, I no longer can find an answer anymore .
To you , I must be a jerk . To you , I must be very annoying. I don't know why, but these is how I felt.

All the smileys in the chats,
All are cover up for reality's face .
All the :D , ^_^ , :) All fake .
I no longer can feel the REAL definition of these smileys.

You may think I'm over reacting but this is how I really feel , between us.
You may think it's all true but I'm willing to surrender .

I don't know what to say , I'm out of words , Heart is broken and solution is never found.
But never mind , Sue Ann here is going to find a way to stop this unbreakable silence.
Don't know Don't know but today is going to be a tough night for me again.
Finding a way to break the unbreakable .
Stopping tears from eyes that were never obedient.

Life is hard without you
but it's even harder that you aren't sync with my world.
I never stopped loving you
until my heart beat really stop .

All I can do now ,
is to clear my mind and tell myself everything will be alright.
It's all just a feeling. It's just a feeling.
I never knew the truth but I love to jump to conclusions.
Sayonara and I'll be back .

Heart is broken and tears are flowing.
Time is going and never stopping.
My feelings to you are not going to change although it hurts inside.

I don't know today why my mood is so bloody hell low ! Seriously, I think too much hopefully God will help me in every drop .

Tried my best and will wait for God's direction. This is what Taemin taught me. Saranghae.

Bye. Good night